Wow. Lately, Jesus has been working some major renovations on my heart. And while all this reconstuction is going on, I figured, that is, Jesus figured, that I should share something. It's a song.
I have no clue why I'm putting this up, other than that while I was sitting here, the idea struck me. Out of absolutely nowhere. And ususally that means Jesus is talking. Sure enough, He was. So here it is.
Most of the songs I write, are birthed out of some experience or another that I've been through. This one, called 'Searching for Love' is about looking for Jesus. Yeah, I've known Jesus pretty much my entire life, yeah, I'm only sixteen and I "don't really know what it's like to be in love" But that pretty much pales in comparison to what I've been through. You don't get really, truly, lost-in-love sort of close to Jesus, without going through Hell itself first. I've had my highs, and definitely my lows. There've been times I felt so lost and wondered if God even existed- because how on earth He could leave me searching, after I'd been so close. But all those times, all those deserts, they only brought me closer, and closer. To the point, that now, I can't imagine not having Jesus.
This is my song, well one of them, that is still my hearts cry. Sure I've found Him, but even now, I want more Jesus, and I'll fight for it. Forever.
This is just a rough version, and not the greatest quality, but yeah. Hope you like it.
I’ve been everywhere looking all around, searching for something I still haven’t found. There’ve been many times the going got real tough, but I’m still running hard ‘cause this life sure ain’t enough, No. Without You I’ve been lost, without You there’s no me, just an empty shell of who I ought to be. It’s not the same without You, please don’t get me wrong. I need You in my life, it’s why I sing this song. Oh. (chorus) I’ve been searching for You long into the night, I won’t give this up without a deadly fight. I’ve been searching through the night. I won’t give up without a fight. No. This life it holds no meaning if you’re not there beside me.There’s no point in living if we could never be. It’s only You I live for and it’s for You I’d die. Can you hear me searching? It’s my heart’s cry. Oh. Chorus. ‘Cause You’re the only One for me ‘Cause You’re the only One I’ve dreamed. Chorus
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
A million, zillion thoughts, all crushed, crammed, jampacked and compacted into one litte post. Well, maybe not so little.
I've been thinking lately. Sometimes that's a good thing. Sometimes that's a bad thing. But regardless of whether it's good or bad (Although I'm leaning more towards the 'good' side this time) I thought I'd share a little of whats been rampantly racing through my mind. 'Cause there sure is a lot. And I'm pretty sure my head's gonna explode real soon if I don't get at least some of it out.
Well, the thing that seems to constantly occupy the most, and oftenest of my thoughts is this: Jesus. Simple as that. But ya'know, He's pretty amazing. Like so incredibly-awesome-and-powerful-but-still-my-best-friend-ever-not-to-mention-the-love-of-my-life-rock-your-world sort of amazing. I can't seem to get Him out of my head. (And my heart) That's okay though, because I kind of like it.
But get this, not only has He been literally consuming my entire mind, but He's been shedding some light on several different subjects. Some of which, had never seen the light of day, but desperately needed it. And some of them, well, lets just say that these concepts never entered my head before. But the weirdest thing of all? They all seem to be connected. They all keep coming around to the same thing. Jesus.
It's kind of bizarre, how so many different concepts or lessons or revelations or whatever you want to call them, can all be summed up with one word. Jesus. He's so much. So deep, yet so simple. I think it's the intricate simplicity of it all that truly blows my mind and keeps tripping me up. It's difficult to grasp. But oh so fantastic.
One of the things that He's been talking to me about lately is Oneness- true family. Not the "we are one family" sort of thing. (Though that's part of it, and it is something He's been talking to be about. A lot. More on that later) But the "Jesus/God/Holy Spirit and you as a person" sort of Oneness thing. Yeah that sounds sort of crazy and probably almost sacrilegious, but hear me out.
You know how the Bible talks about how "We are in Christ Jesus our Lord" and that "He dwells in us" and that whole thing about "Our bodies being the temple of the Holy Spirit"? (And if you didn't you should go catch up on that, it's pretty awesome) What if what the Bible says, is how it really is. When we accept Jesus into our hearts, we give Him permission to "move in". And when we're filled with the Holy Spirit, we're literally filled with the Holy Spirit. He lives in us.
But did you catch that first part I put down? The "We are in Jesus" part? Well, don't quote me on this, but what if we really are in Jesus? Like really and truly in Jesus. Because if He becomes a part of us, how can we not be in Him? (I'm not meaning that we are God or anything even close to that) But it seems that it can't work only one way, because God doesn't ever seem to work that way. He doesn't want to "own" us, he wants a relationship. Sure He came and died for us, but we have to choose Him.
Call me crazy, but I think He wants a different sort of relationship. One where, instead of constantly asking, "Okay Jesus, what do you want me to do right now?" you just know. Something where we understand His will and His heart. Because we're so close to God, so lost in Him. So much so, that His instincts become our instincts, His ways become our ways, His breath becomes our breath, and His very blood runs through our veins.
But it's not some sort of magical "knowing" or anything that suddenly happens over night, but the beautiful fruit of sweat and blood, of hard work. Because you really have to want to know Jesus like that. You have to completely surrender to Him (That brings up a whole other train of thoughts, but I'll save that for another day) and you have to really, really love His word, read His word, spend time with Him. Because that's who He is.
I don't know if I'm doing this any justice. I can't quite seem to get what I'm thinking into words, but it's pretty close. Oh well, I'll let Jesus do the talking. :)
So yeah, that's just a tiny little taste of the things on my mind. Pretty crazy huh?
"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through Him all things were made; without Him nothing was made that has been made. In Him was life, and that life was the light of men"
Well, the thing that seems to constantly occupy the most, and oftenest of my thoughts is this: Jesus. Simple as that. But ya'know, He's pretty amazing. Like so incredibly-awesome-and-powerful-but-still-my-best-friend-ever-not-to-mention-the-love-of-my-life-rock-your-world sort of amazing. I can't seem to get Him out of my head. (And my heart) That's okay though, because I kind of like it.
But get this, not only has He been literally consuming my entire mind, but He's been shedding some light on several different subjects. Some of which, had never seen the light of day, but desperately needed it. And some of them, well, lets just say that these concepts never entered my head before. But the weirdest thing of all? They all seem to be connected. They all keep coming around to the same thing. Jesus.
It's kind of bizarre, how so many different concepts or lessons or revelations or whatever you want to call them, can all be summed up with one word. Jesus. He's so much. So deep, yet so simple. I think it's the intricate simplicity of it all that truly blows my mind and keeps tripping me up. It's difficult to grasp. But oh so fantastic.
One of the things that He's been talking to me about lately is Oneness- true family. Not the "we are one family" sort of thing. (Though that's part of it, and it is something He's been talking to be about. A lot. More on that later) But the "Jesus/God/Holy Spirit and you as a person" sort of Oneness thing. Yeah that sounds sort of crazy and probably almost sacrilegious, but hear me out.
You know how the Bible talks about how "We are in Christ Jesus our Lord" and that "He dwells in us" and that whole thing about "Our bodies being the temple of the Holy Spirit"? (And if you didn't you should go catch up on that, it's pretty awesome) What if what the Bible says, is how it really is. When we accept Jesus into our hearts, we give Him permission to "move in". And when we're filled with the Holy Spirit, we're literally filled with the Holy Spirit. He lives in us.
But did you catch that first part I put down? The "We are in Jesus" part? Well, don't quote me on this, but what if we really are in Jesus? Like really and truly in Jesus. Because if He becomes a part of us, how can we not be in Him? (I'm not meaning that we are God or anything even close to that) But it seems that it can't work only one way, because God doesn't ever seem to work that way. He doesn't want to "own" us, he wants a relationship. Sure He came and died for us, but we have to choose Him.
Call me crazy, but I think He wants a different sort of relationship. One where, instead of constantly asking, "Okay Jesus, what do you want me to do right now?" you just know. Something where we understand His will and His heart. Because we're so close to God, so lost in Him. So much so, that His instincts become our instincts, His ways become our ways, His breath becomes our breath, and His very blood runs through our veins.
But it's not some sort of magical "knowing" or anything that suddenly happens over night, but the beautiful fruit of sweat and blood, of hard work. Because you really have to want to know Jesus like that. You have to completely surrender to Him (That brings up a whole other train of thoughts, but I'll save that for another day) and you have to really, really love His word, read His word, spend time with Him. Because that's who He is.
I don't know if I'm doing this any justice. I can't quite seem to get what I'm thinking into words, but it's pretty close. Oh well, I'll let Jesus do the talking. :)
So yeah, that's just a tiny little taste of the things on my mind. Pretty crazy huh?
"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through Him all things were made; without Him nothing was made that has been made. In Him was life, and that life was the light of men"
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